I feel like I should be happier during my break… but I’m really not. Home is stressful, buying gifts was financially stressful today, and seeing my marks this evening was just icing on the cake for terribleness. Sighh. I’m so screwed for money in the coming months, it’s not even funny. I know my debt is not even that crazy right now opposed to other people, but I just feel so crappy about it. I feel like a failure for not being able to pay for school myself. Not really my fault though, as it costs a lot.

This coming school term will probably be a lot of fun, but I need to work really hard too. I guess that will be my ‘new year resolution’.

This is just one big complainy post now. :\

School isn’t going so well this term. It just hit me a couple days ago that I’m in serious trouble for my courses… If I don’t start doing very well on assignments for the CS courses, there’s a good chance I’ll fail. The consequence of failing one or both of CS240 or CS246 is not being able to take my next term’s courses. If not all of them, then at least the most important ones required to go on even further in my degree.

I spent way too much time doing nothing this term… I’m not including going to the gym in this ‘nothing’ though — that was at least beneficial to my health. This term has been the most work ever, and unfortunately one with lots of bad profs. CS240 and CS245 have probably the worst profs ever. I don’t have much against their inability to speak English properly, but more their translation from knowing the material themselves to teaching it to students who are not familiar with the course. CS245 is so ridiculous. The midterm average was 42%. When I saw my grade was 63%, I was thinking: They must have bell-curved it. But that 63% is a 63% against the 42% average, which makes me look good. I find it ironic that the only class I’ve passed all the assignments in, is the class that’s most retarded (CS245).

I’m currently pulling an all-nighter to get a CS240 assignment done, but I don’t think that’s going to work very well. The newsgroup is full of people asking for extensions. While having this assignment is not a problem, but having the largest (both in worth and content) assignment before the midterm two days later is pretty unacceptable. I think the prof is just an asshole. This assignment is worth about 10% of my grade, while the others are worth about 2%. This obviously isn’t the only course I’m taking either, so I have other midterms.

I really just feel like breaking down and crying, but there seriously isn’t even time for that. This month will be a crazy one. Luckily I have someone nice who brings me Tim’s at midnight :D <3

The holidays will be very, very welcome.